For a few years, in many ways, my life has been at a standstill. I'm in the same place with nothing to add to my professional resume. Though I do not feel that this time has been wasted. I have learned much about myself. Learned my limits: physically, emotionally, and mentally.
Now though, things could change in a big way. It all depends on something that will be decided by a person or a group over 500 miles away. And it terrifies me. I turned in my application almost a month ago, but weeks of traveling distracted me. Two nights ago it took me hours to fall asleep. The anxiety of what the future could hold enveloped my thoughts.
But then yesterday I realized that the future will come and things will work out the way they're supposed to. So I decided to just enjoy the ride. Last night I was able to sleep without a problem.
